So much has taken place in the past 2.5 months since my open-heart surgery. Learning my limitations for the first three weeks was tough on this girl!
Walking in increments to reach my goal, getting in and out of bed in a way to protect my chest, being tired all the time to eventually just at the end of the day. Thank goodness I prepped for my recovery by slow cooking roasts and vacuum sealing the meals for later. What delicious meals I have had to taste and savor!
I am now back to my early mornings with Murphy, hiking up and jogging down in the Hillside to Hollow trails in the Boise foothills. I am canning my garden harvest and figuring out what to do with the rest of the food. My kitchen is my happy place because I can take and idea and watch it develop into a delicious dish.
All that aside, this is also the month that Paul passed away five years ago. I don’t think of him as much as I did the first year, but last week was poignant because is was the date. Gawd I cried so much back then. I realized tonight that I no longer cry much these days.
I think that is a good thing.
What I realized this morning is how I moved forward after Paul’s death and did not look back. Sure, I cherished the memories, I missed him deeply then. After a year, reality truly sank in, he was gone. And I am okay with that. He gave me many life gifts I am grateful for.
Then, moving forward also came with life challenges and I realized it was time to make changes. I joined a real estate team, after all, I was tired of working alone. I moved out of the tiny house I lived in after Paul died and I now have more space. That change set in motion a fresh outlook, too. I went back to hiking the foothills trails, my other happy place. I have travel plans here and abroad.
I am getting out more, calling more friends, making new friends, doing things I had set aside for no particular reason.
I am embarking on a new journey this holiday season. Stay tuned!
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