This weekend I found myself in the throes of feelings of loneliness of the grieving period. Which leads me to ask myself, how can I possibly even think that I am “alone” when I have so many friends, when I have terrific siblings, when I even have great neighbors? But is being alone the same... Continue Reading →
Dear Paul,
Today, Sunday, is the first day since you have been gone that I took nap midday, read a book, and had no plans whatsoever. I wish I could say I am bored but that is not the case at all! First of all, my fundraising event for Expedition Inspiration is behind me now. We put... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I Get Frustrated
Have you ever noticed how long it takes to purchase a vehicle? How about a new cell phone? I swear signing a contract to submit an offer on a home is much easier! Let me give you an example. Let's say you are looking for a home. You ask around and get a referral for... Continue Reading →
Stains on Clothes are Memories
How does it happen anyway? Every single time I wear a light color, I inevitably spill something, That something is usually salsa, coffee or salad dressing, the three major sources of stains on my clothes. I used to get a bit irritated when this happened. Rats! Another blouse or shirt ruined! Until one fine day,... Continue Reading →
It’s Another Great Day
This may sound cliché, but what the heck. It is another great day. Ever since Paul left this planet, life has dramatically changed for me. From happily living with him in a classic rancher in the Lower Highlands, to packing and moving. Being a human yo-yo is the pits. But reality was that I had... Continue Reading →
Don’t Play Games
I have been on a learning path the past two months, and what a path it has been! I learned by trial and error, that in order to function I had to let go of things. I had to release myself of some commitments, to change my mindset about where I live, and even relinquish... Continue Reading →
Dear Paul,
I thought of letting you know that I am feeling so much better than when you left before Thanksgiving. And yet, even though every day is better, every day is still difficult. I miss you so much. I kept busy in the first two weeks by surviving. I won’t go in to details, but suffice... Continue Reading →
Losing Someone Important
We will all lose someone important in our lives: a mother, a father, a brother, a sister, a dear friend. We will all deal with that grief in a different way with each person that passes. In our lifetimes, we all will lose a very important person. But allow me to give one piece of... Continue Reading →
Please Forgive Me
Please forgive me, but my grieving brain cannot remember or recall anything from one day to the next. Make sure I write it down or send me a calendar invite. Otherwise I just may forget. I really do want to see you and spend time with you. Maybe I need to admit it is too... Continue Reading →
Guess What? I Am Still Happy
Grieving is such an odd ball of wax, a difficult process to pinpoint and even hard, oh so hard to stuff in a box. You have to face it head on otherwise you just will not heal. Remember the ride I mentioned in my last post? It's a roller coaster and your stomach rolls with... Continue Reading →