Blogging from my heart in Boise, Idaho & Realtor® Fathom Realty
Looking back the past five years since Paul passed away, I’ve realized that I have been through the ringer. Grief, loss, illness, more loss, more weird health issues. Then, the joy! Despite the fact that Zeke died from severe congestive heart failure and my determination to not get another dog, Murphy boldly appears. I am... Continue Reading →
I had writers block this week! So much so that this blog post has been sitting in MS Word on my taskbar all week. Avoidance much? For those of you that know me well, you would be as surprised as I was earlier this week. November 4th would have been Paul’s birthday. Which is a... Continue Reading →
Damnit. Just damnit. When one learns of a dear friend who will no longer be of this world soon, you just have too many questions with too many non-answers. But the questions….. You could have helped….no You could have stopped it…..nope You could have made it better…..not really And yet, what you can do is... Continue Reading →
I am moving at the end of the month, so this weekend I have begun the packing process. First, you get the boxes and put them in the garage and just look at them. And then the only word that runs the rodeo in your head is “work”. {sigh} I really shouldn’t complain, after all... Continue Reading →
The difficult times in my past have always had the great wide open outdoors as one of my conduits towards healing. When I lived in Ketchum, I loved jogging in Adams Gulch on the Shadyside trail. In McCall, it was hiking in Ponderosa State Park. Here in Boise, it’s hiking/jogging the Boise Foothills in the... Continue Reading →
Looking back, two and half years later, I find myself in a life I did not expect and yet a life that I now embrace fully. I really thought I would grow old with Paul, doing daily activities together. It’s sort of me and my dog, Zeke, now. I have learned to say yes to... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I have to give myself a palm to forehead slap. I have to knock the sense back into place in that stubborn mind of mine. Life can be just like a tug of war in life, especially when you are a strong person like myself. I now need more than I am asking for... Continue Reading →
I am dog watching for a friend again for a week, and I have renamed this willful dog Houdini. At first, I thought he was jumping the fence which was only four feet tall. I added a foot to the top. Still got out. Then I realized he was pushing the fence enough to escape... Continue Reading →
Dear Paul, I have been thinking of you a great deal. Your birthday passed a few weeks ago. The day you had your cardiac arrest passed, which is the date I consider when you died. Four days later, we had to pull your life support. I knew you were not in your body because you... Continue Reading →
I have been thinking a great deal about the choices I have made since Paul died, almost two years ago. My goals – choices if you will – were to heal, to learn, to forgive, to live. Living was the key ingredient that got me out of bed every day and hike with Zeke, my... Continue Reading →
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