Looking back the past five years since Paul passed away, I’ve realized that I have been through the ringer. Grief, loss, illness, more loss, more weird health issues. Then, the joy! Despite the fact that Zeke died from severe congestive heart failure and my determination to not get another dog, Murphy boldly appears. I am... Continue Reading →
Late Fall Reminds Me of Grief #GriefIsAlwaysThere
I had writers block this week! So much so that this blog post has been sitting in MS Word on my taskbar all week. Avoidance much? For those of you that know me well, you would be as surprised as I was earlier this week. November 4th would have been Paul’s birthday. Which is a... Continue Reading →
My New Normal Works for Me #Grief in the Background
Six months after Paul died in 2014, I moved into a tiny house in the Art District in Garden City. 480 square feet cocooned me in a blanket as I grieved for months. It was perfect back then, a small space to make my own, a small space that allowed me the luxury of not... Continue Reading →
Words to the Other Side #WordsofGratitude
Dearest Friend, I still cannot believe you have left this earth for the next journey in this thing we call Life. It just does not seem possible that one day you were here and then soon thereafter, you are gone. But gone does not mean anything more than the physical, does it? I remember when... Continue Reading →
Why Are We So Afraid of Death? #Grief #Grieving #GoodBye
Damn, just damnit. The passing of a friend before her time is weighing heavy on me since Friday. Not why but what the heck. Why are we so damn afraid of death? Isn’t it the circle of life? Isn’t death inevitable? We cry and mourn, and the experience weighs heavy on our shoulders. We also... Continue Reading →
That Path to the Unknown #Grief #Grieving #PassingOn
Damnit. Just damnit. When one learns of a dear friend who will no longer be of this world soon, you just have too many questions with too many non-answers. But the questions….. You could have helped….no You could have stopped it…..nope You could have made it better…..not really And yet, what you can do is... Continue Reading →
Moving Can Be Emotional, For Reasons We May Not Realize #ChangeIsGood
I finished moving from my 480 square foot tiny house to a real place, 1,200 square feet featuring 3 bedrooms, 2 baths and a 2 car garage. Don’t laugh at my Realtor description, I can’t help it! I also had to admit that this was more emotional than any other move from my past. I... Continue Reading →
Pushing Grief Aside, Again #Grieving #LifeLesson
I am moving at the end of the month, so this weekend I have begun the packing process. First, you get the boxes and put them in the garage and just look at them. And then the only word that runs the rodeo in your head is “work”. {sigh} I really shouldn’t complain, after all... Continue Reading →
It Really Is All About Your Attitude #AttitudeDancing
I am going to go out on that limb I never wanted to climb on that avocado tree in my aunt and uncle’s front yard in Pico Rivera in Southern California. I was always so envious of the boys that would just keep climbing higher. What held me back? But just last night I realized... Continue Reading →