Blogging from my heart in Boise, Idaho
I had an entire blog post written for today. But the events of this past weekend turned me upside down and all around. I just could not press the send button. No way, no how. Honestly, I did not have the energy. As it was, I wrote about how friends and friendships are critical when... Continue Reading →
When you have the opportunity to watch others, you can see the joy in how they look at the world. Especially when it is something that was familiar but in their absence, things had changed. The old familiar can become new again and watching that joy is catching. The same goes for me the past... Continue Reading →
A year has just about come and gone. After Paul died, a friend told me it would take a year, and I winced in emotional pain. No, not a year of this heartache that at times was literally physical! But she was right, after a period of time, I found that time was the patch... Continue Reading →
Seriously, I caught myself doing that heavy sigh too much Sunday. Took a beautiful power walk on the greenbelt along the river early. Sigh. Got my act together to show up to church rather than stream the service like I usually do. Sigh. Went to the grocery store to get a few things for a... Continue Reading →
This past weekend was the Celebration of Life for Paul, and it all went perfectly! Paul’s brother and two sisters flew in from different corners of the country as well as friends from college and friends he went to baseball camps or spring training that he kept in touch with. To me, this is the... Continue Reading →
Just when I thought – key word here: thought – I was doing “betterâ€, along comes a 20 foot wave. I must have needed a good mega cry because today I am better. What a relief! In a grief group I attended after Paul died, we discussed that grief come in waves and often times... Continue Reading →
All I can tell you is that Fear is a powerful monkey if you don’t say, “beat it!†It creeps up when you least expect it, you know, when you think you have your moxie back. When you think things are going super great and all. No, the sky is not falling. I am in... Continue Reading →
Have you ever noticed how long it takes to purchase a vehicle? How about a new cell phone? I swear signing a contract to submit an offer on a home is much easier! Let me give you an example. Let's say you are looking for a home. You ask around and get a referral for... Continue Reading →
I thought of letting you know that I am feeling so much better than when you left before Thanksgiving. And yet, even though every day is better, every day is still difficult. I miss you so much. I kept busy in the first two weeks by surviving. I won’t go in to details, but suffice... Continue Reading →
My journey of grieving has also meant receiving gifts from the other side. I have experienced a strengthening of friendships, some of which I made through Paul. Â And, surprisingly enough, new friends have reached out to share what he told them about me. These gifts from Paul have been a remarkable part of my journey.... Continue Reading →
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